• 5 WHYZ,  Mental Matters,  Parenting

    5 Reasons Why I Know My Child Has Autism

      When we told our friends and family that we believe Olive has autism, the responses were varied. We faced questions such as, “Are you sure?” or, “But she seems fine though.” (what even is fine?) But those that know us best, they trusted that we wouldn’t just throw ourselves head first into the diagnosis process (which can take YEARS) without being absolutely sure of it ourselves. 1. Her emotional response does not match the situation Olive really struggles with her emotions. There are times when she just bursts into tears for what is seemingly the slightest thing. There was a moment when I didn’t ask the takeaway for curry…

  • Life,  Mental Matters

    Perfect Doesn’t Exist

    As some of you may know, I’m 33. From around the age of ‘knee-high to a grasshopper’ I’ve been asked – “what do you want to be when you grow up?” I have dreamt of a hundred different lives from the usual – ballerina, teacher, princess – to the not so usual – travel journalist, interior decor designer, vampire. In fact, it’s an age old question that we ask our own children today and, I don’t know about you but I worry that my kids want to be YouTuber’s or gymnasts (having never taken a class in their life) and even a builder. I mean, it’s already ALL or NOTHING…

  • Mental Matters

    When I Finally Admitted That I Needed Help

    *TRIGGER WARNING* this post contains potentially distressing material on subjects including but not exclusive to self harm and suicidal thoughts. I’m not really sure when I realised I was struggling with mental health challenges. As someone who self-harmed for quite some time throughout my teen years, I suppose I’d always assumed that I had some issues. But after the one and only occasion I tried to reach out for help at the age of 17 and was forcibly knocked back by a GP I had known practically my whole life – labeling me an “attention-seeker”. I got to feeling like he must be right and I buried everything. I got…

  • Mental Matters,  Parenting

    Why We Became Foster Parents

    First before you read this, I just want to say that I have a lot of respect and understanding for people suffering from depression, anxiety and other mental illnesses. However, this article is not about them and what difficulties they may have been through. It’s about the others – those who are left behind, their family. This is the story of why we became foster parents. After years of struggling my sister checked herself into a Psychiatric Hospital. At the time we thought that this would mean things would get better but sadly they escalated. Eventually her relationship failed and she pushed her children’s father and her two daughters away. She…

  • 5 WHYZ,  Mental Matters

    5 Reasons Why Anxiety and Overthinking Are Part Of My Life

    When I was at primary school a Mum of one of my friends dressed up as a fortune teller at a school fair and read palms.  I remember her telling me that I had a long worry line and I was obviously a big worrier.  It resonated with me but I don’t know if by telling me this she put ideas into my head or she was just making an observation about my behaviour at that age! 5 Things That Make Me Anxious: Travelling Social situations What people think Work Unexplainable reasons I have friends who can’t understand why I insist on being at airports or train stations well before…

  • Mental Matters,  Parenting

    My Toxic Parent

    Not what I expected to hear, age 38 – I thought I’d had a stable and loving upbringing, I thought my relationship with my parents was normal. But I was seeking help because of my anger issues, my anxiety, and my inability to cope with stress.  But I couldn’t have a toxic parent – she’d not beaten me, not starved me, and she was still around.  Still in my life, still living ten miles away, living a normal life. And then I started to dig deeper into my past. The comments about my weight started age 11, when I was podgy and my new school trousers wouldn’t fit.  A loving parent…